Coryn had a lunch date with Cooper today. I tagged along and chatted with his mom, Kristi and another friend, Heather. Cooper was quite smitten with Miss Coryn.
So I have spent the last week trying to figure out my phone blogging. In an effort to get back into the swing of blogging, I started small with a word and photo of the day.
Day one was a picture of an empty laundry basket with the word being accomplished! Rarely are all of my baskets empty and I can't explain why, but I feel awesome when it happens and will walk by my laundry room and just gaze at the empty baskets. I'd take another picture, but it would be a lie as two have clothes in them again.
Day two(yesterday) was a picture of my friend and partner in crime, Teresa. We went on a hike yesterday while all 6 kids were at school. We hiked, slid and climbed our way through mud and deer crap! We joked about it being just as good as a high priced spa treatment. We found an old tree house and I had an awesome picture of her all muddy. I felt like a kid again when I would get lost in the woods for hours.
So I tell you this because I realized yesterday that the pictures weren't posting here. So I have spent yesterday and this morning trying to figure out why and in my effort I deleted the pictures. I think I have finally figured it out though...SO without further ado I will start on Day three today. You will just have to imagine the pictures from the first two days. I am going to try to do this through the entire month of March. Stop laughing at me, because I really am going to do it!
So to make my blogging easier and also more accessible, I now have a blog app on my phone. I fall more and more in love with this little gem of technology each day. Oh I hope you get sick of me!
My blogging ebbs and flows with my moods. I kept trying to come back to it, but I just wasn't feeling it. And like anything in my life, if I'm not feeling it, it gets pushed to the backburner..i.e. laundry, dinner, activities...you get the idea. I've been in a slump. Not really sure what got me here, but I presume it has something to do with this:
It looks pretty, which is why I took a picture of it. This was before Christmas, but this same weather has continued repeatedly. We've been spoiled the last few winters with mild weather and so I think this one has caught me off guard. I have stopped taking pictures, because white isn't pretty anymore. I want to see the sun, see the little green buds on the trees AND see my kids outside!
The other thing that got me down was a health concern that I had. I had an ovarian cyst rupture recently. It's nothing new for me, it happens. My doctor sent me for a sono where they found a mass! I spent the next week freaked out, because, hello??? MASS! They had a sono from two years prior that showed the same mass, but it had grown. So I imagined my daughters growing up without me there or with me there in a diminished state. UGH! Not a healthy place to be. I finally saw my gyno last week and she put my mind at ease for the time being. I am taking hormones to hopefully shrink it. I will go back April 20 for a follow up sonogram. But I am feeling good about it at this point. I have to, because I couldn't keep living in fear of it until there is truly something to fear.
Along the bad news line, our house in Pleasant Hill is still ours. I feel like this house is our own personal plague. It makes no sense because it is a beautiful house on a beautiful lot. I hope it sells here soon. If you know anyone interested in a 4 bedroom, 2.5 bath, home in PHill, We can hook them up ;)
OK now for the good news, my kids are healthy and relatively happy. We have an awesomely wonderful group of friends and of course our families, J.R. has a job and a good one for that matter, We are able to house,feed and clothe our family and still participate in things that interest us. We are blessed! I know this deep down, so I need to spend more time looking at these blessings and thanking God for them and not let the weather, health, or a second mortgage get me down.
When I became pregnant with Coryn, I also became extremely congested. I had to take Benadryl and Sudafed through my pregnancy with her just to make it day to day. I assumed that it was a new pregnancy side effect that I had not had with my first two pregnancies and counted down to September 2006 excited to meet my baby, but also to see that side effect disappear. Imagine my horror when I realized that particular symptom would not be leaving and would in fact become worse. When she was a few months old, I sought out an allergist who performed an allergy scratch test using a tray that was pushed on my back. I was a little depressed to learn that I had no allergies. I did however have a sinus infection and also found out I had hypothyroid. Maybe these two things would explain my constant nasal suffering? So we treated those and went on with life and the symptoms continued and also with each season continued to get worse. And yet in the back of my mind I thought that the test had somehow been performed wrong. There was no way to explain my discomfort, but to describe it as severe allergies. And so just recently I decided to go for testing again. I talked to my friend/doctor and she suggested that I try Kansas City Allergy and Asthma clinic. I finally made the call.
A week before the testing I had to go off all my antihistamines. That was a tough week. Mid-week I had a conversation with another woman who had also gone to that first doctor and been told she had no allergies also and yet she was still suffering. This just strengthened my resolve to get the testing knowing that the outcome would be different this time and I might finally get some answers.
On Tuesday afternoon I went into the office, talked to the Doctor and then had the first part of the test performed. This time the tech did each scratch individually. It was more uncomfortable than the first time, but it also really "scratched" me so I knew it had gotten into my skin. I reacted to several things with that so we moved on to injections in my arm which caused even more reactions. I found out I was allergic to molds, dustmites, grass, trees, ragweed etc etc. Thankyou God!! The doctor spent a considerable amount of time discussing my options and changing my meds. He also feels that I have chronic Sinusitis. So we are treating that also. I felt so relieved. I honestly felt this huge depressing cloud lift from me. We can treat this. I can feel better.
I am still a little annoyed that the first doctor missed this and never really tried to help me. Not only did it cost us a good deal of money, but it cost me three more years where I could have been feeling better.
But I won't spend too much time dwelling on that. I will look towards the future and know that I am finally getting my answers and that I WILL feel better.
So we returned from Florida a few weeks ago. We had a blast but one thing that was not so great were the pictures of me. I hate seeing myself in pictures. I hate being in pictures. I feel like a toad! Well maybe not a toad, but I definitely don't have any narcissistic tendencies going on when I look at a picture of myself. And instead of pausing over a picture of myself and thinking that it looks nice, I pause and obsess about everything that is wrong with it. So I am back on the wagon as of yesterday. I no longer own a scale thanks to Coryn using it as a trampoline, but that is ok, because it isn't so much about the number as it is about how I feel and how my clothes fit. I am using all the awesome information that I learned at Weight Watchers and am also going to be using the Sparkpeople app on my phone to help me get there.
One of the best ways to stay motivated is to know that other people know that I am working on it. Because the little motivations that come from conversations and questions from my friends and the fact that when I am out socially with one of you, you "know" what I am trying to do and support me, really makes a huge difference. I am putting it out there for the world. I am giving myself 7 months to make a difference. We go on a cruise then, and I would really LOVE to wear a bathing suit and feel good about how I look. So there you have it!
It's funny how you hear a song a thousand times and never really listen to it. This morning I really LISTENED to a song and guess what? A song that never really meant that much to me, all of a sudden became genius to me. Here are the lyrics:
Drops of Jupiter by Seatrain
Now that she's back in the atmosphere
With drops of Jupiter in her hair, hey, hey
She acts like summer and walks like rain
Reminds me that there's time to change, hey, hey
Since the return from her stay on the moon
She listens like spring and she talks like June, hey, hey
Tell me did you sail across the sun
Did you make it to the milky way to see the lights all faded
And that heaven is overrated
Tell me, did you fall for a shooting star
One without a permanent scar
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there
Now that she's back from that soul vacation
Tracing her way through the constellation, hey, hey
She checks out Mozart while she does tae-bo
Reminds me that there's room to grow, hey, hey
Now that she's back in the atmosphere
I'm afraid that she might think of me as plain ol Jane
Told a story about a man who is too afraid to fly so he never did land
Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back to the milky way
And tell me, did venus blow your mind
Was it everything you wanted to find
And did you miss me while you were looking for yourself out there
Can you imagine no love, pride, deep-fried chicken
Your best friend always sticking up for you even when I know you're wrong
Can you imagine no first dance, freeze dried romance five-hour phone
Conversation
The best soy latte that you ever had... And me
Tell me did the wind sweep you off your feet
Did you finally get the chance to dance along the light of day
And head back toward the milky way
I think I want to paint the chorus somewhere in one of my girls rooms!
