The ups and downs of a hiatus

My blogging ebbs and flows with my moods. I kept trying to come back to it, but I just wasn't feeling it. And like anything in my life, if I'm not feeling it, it gets pushed to the backburner..i.e. laundry, dinner, activities...you get the idea. I've been in a slump. Not really sure what got me here, but I presume it has something to do with this:

It looks pretty, which is why I took a picture of it. This was before Christmas, but this same weather has continued repeatedly. We've been spoiled the last few winters with mild weather and so I think this one has caught me off guard. I have stopped taking pictures, because white isn't pretty anymore. I want to see the sun, see the little green buds on the trees AND see my kids outside!

The other thing that got me down was a health concern that I had. I had an ovarian cyst rupture recently. It's nothing new for me, it happens. My doctor sent me for a sono where they found a mass! I spent the next week freaked out, because, hello??? MASS! They had a sono from two years prior that showed the same mass, but it had grown. So I imagined my daughters growing up without me there or with me there in a diminished state. UGH! Not a healthy place to be. I finally saw my gyno last week and she put my mind at ease for the time being. I am taking hormones to hopefully shrink it. I will go back April 20 for a follow up sonogram. But I am feeling good about it at this point. I have to, because I couldn't keep living in fear of it until there is truly something to fear.

Along the bad news line, our house in Pleasant Hill is still ours. I feel like this house is our own personal plague. It makes no sense because it is a beautiful house on a beautiful lot. I hope it sells here soon. If you know anyone interested in a 4 bedroom, 2.5 bath, home in PHill, We can hook them up ;)

OK now for the good news, my kids are healthy and relatively happy. We have an awesomely wonderful group of friends and of course our families, J.R. has a job and a good one for that matter, We are able to house,feed and clothe our family and still participate in things that interest us. We are blessed! I know this deep down, so I need to spend more time looking at these blessings and thanking God for them and not let the weather, health, or a second mortgage get me down.